Willing to act jumps off the page at me. We might receive an answer that we really don’t like. We might have to do something we really don’t want to do. We might have to work really hard for a while. We might have to change and rearrange things in many areas. I have had answers come to me and ignored them. I have had answers come to me and I wanted to run away instead. I think I have had enough experiences that I have lived a lot of stories in the Bible. Of course I have referenced Jonah, in his willingness to run away, also in his willingness to go and do but then be mad about it. Job is the one that we all kind of hope and wish we could be a little more like when things go very wrong. However, I don’t think Job performed perfectly, because he was still human. I am sure that he was angry for a while over the unfairness, he just didn’t express it to his friends. He probably told his Heavenly Father all about it though. With Job, he was doing the right things, his heart was centered on Christ so when those times happened he relied even more so. That is the key difference. If we only give lip service it will show up eventually. The Lord requires a willing heart and mind. If we give him that however difficult it is to do, he will give us more than what we deserve. Along with that we must act. I think that Heavenly Father knows us well enough that he will work with us until we can come to agree with his will. Almost 8 years ago, the last thing I wanted was to get pregnant, I was over 40 and had a grandson already. So when I knew that had to happen I was less than thrilled. I had so many doubts and fears, but I willingly made sure it happened. In fact that was the easy part. The majority of my pregnancy I prayed that I would be able to love this little girl that was coming to me. This was a huge struggle because I didn’t want to resent her for messing up what I wanted to do which was get a nursing degree. Then she was born and I could not deny the love I had for my little girl. In fact a lot of really bad things happened that could have made it difficult for me to love her and really resent her (not gaining weight, the DCFS call…etc.). At this point in my life I couldn’t imagine my life without her. She has all the personality, attitude and spunk that she needs to do really well in this world. Those things I had to go through were all part of the “taming” of my wild and unruly heart. Those experiences were needed for the next step that I am on right now. The step that brings me to my knees in gratitude for the experience. The step that makes me hope and pray that I have the courage to do what needs to be done with a willing heart and mind.