We all start life believing that things will go well for us. We have faith as a child and then things happen that cause us to question that. Occasionally, bad things happen that we didn’t ask for that really rock our confidence. This can then cause us to doubt and become lazy in our faith, even if we have other good things happening at the same time as the one bad thing. I have gone through countless experiences that have caused this condition. The one thing I have learned is that you can be hurt and angry and refuse to listen to the lesson that is being taught or you can humble yourself and remain positive and listen. I have done both. I had a friend who lived across the street from me, we were good friends. I would comfort and encourage her as she suffered from mental illness. I would come over and serve her by cleaning her house which took many hours to do. There were times when I could not take the accusations that she would invariably come up with against me. Some days she was my enemy. There were times I would get so hurt and angry and refuse to extend my hand to help her. I knew she suffered mentally because of the abuse she had suffered as a child, so a lot of times I would let things ride with her. Until I could take no more and retreat to my own space. When she was my enemy I was an unteachable doubter. I doubted everything about our friendship the bad far outweighed the good. One time I overheard her talking about me in a very negative way at church and I was mortified, I had helped her so much and people knew it. Thankfully, the person she was talking to knew me and said he considers the source and that I was fine. From this, I learned that prayers are sometimes more effective than taking other actions. Our interaction the last time I saw her was not good but I still care for my friend even though she has multiplied the negatives and possibly thinks I am her enemy. As I desire to learn the truth in similar circumstances that I find myself in, I am better able to hear and feel the spirit if I ask in faith believing that I will receive. The most important thing I have learned is that being angry and upset causes the spirit to not stay and therefore easier for the doubts to take over.