Somethings are easy to accomplish. Other things require lots of soul searching and fear and trembling. What if you were going along doing the right things and accomplishing much good and then all of a sudden realized that although you are doing everything right there is a little bit more required of you. Remember that man who was rich and asked Jesus Christ what else he needed? Yea, the one who walked away sorrowing because he was asked to give up all his riches and follow him. I think this man was sincere in his question. Sometimes we ask the very same question and then it begins. To the very depths of who we are and who we hope to ever become lies in that moment. The reason so much is required is because it is the fundamental lesson of trusting God. We can all talk a good game but when push comes to shove do we mean what we say. For example, we may be asked to serve in something that we don’t feel comfortable with. Do we say no or do we trust that we will be given those things in the very hour that we need them. In my life I have taken a few chances, some of which have not gone well. I was going to get my accreditation for genealogy since I like finding dead people. I’ve done it for years. I thought this will be a good thing. I did a massive project that took a long time to accomplish with citations and references, etc. I prayed about it. I was ready for it and submitted it. I did discover I hated doing the report, I’m a little more free in my writing and didn’t like the very technical things I had to talk about. However, I was careful on many things, was it perfect? no, I knew there were areas I needed to work on. Finally I got my results and they nitpicked the very things that I was so careful about. Which didn’t make any sense to me. I felt that this was the Lords plan that I try to do this and now here is a big obstacle. I actually asked very pointed questions of the secretary in charge since this was all graded without the people grading it knowing who it was submitting it. I was referred to somebody who actually graded it for deciphering. She even agreed that those things were not correct, however, when another group ended up grading it I got the same result with no correction of those issues that were out of place even with the lady who first graded it. I prayed throughout all of this and eventually I came to the conclusion that the lessons learned of writing things down, taking notes and been deliberate was the lesson I had learned from it. I couldn’t have got the lesson any other way. Since then I have tried to figure out what I should do next. I have found something that fits me, however, it still makes me feel out of my comfort zone. However, I am learning to trust that things will fall into place. One more thought even before the young man walked away Jesus beholding him and loved him. Even if we do not choose to follow the Lords plan he still loves us anyway.