When I was young I left home and spent time with good friends in Miami. I was rarely alone, always around people. I came back home and couldn’t imagine ever been alone. I thought that alone meant lonely. I found out it is not. After I got divorced, I spent 2 years pretty much by myself, first time ever!! At times I would get lonely but I did enjoy the solitude of it. I spent a lot of time reading scriptures and listening to uplifting music. It wasn’t really a sacrifice as I was committed to growing myself and finding a suitable partner eventually. I do look back on those times and see that it was a great investment. It centered and focused me, and gave me the ability to overcome a lot of different challenges that I had. In my most difficult times I have reverted back to this pattern of growth. I can’t say I will ever be perfect in this life. However, I do know that Heavenly Father blessed me with some spiritual gifts that could only come about while I was trying to grow myself. Sometimes we have a tendency to forget what our spiritual gifts are and the only way to find them is by going through this process of relying on the Savior and growing ourselves. When I had a miscarriage I thought it unfair because this baby would be well loved if that would not have happened. I soon found out the timing was not right. My doctor encouraged me to wait 6 months another unfair thing in my eyes. By time Sean came along Mark and I had been married about 2 years. It was plenty enough time for us to work on our relationship before adding another human to this world. Plus it brought us closer together. It was a sacrifice that ended up being the greatest investment! It was a good thing we became closer because when Sean did come along, he was the most difficult baby I have ever known, he still is all sorts of determined, persistent difficult kid, however, he makes me smile…again another great investment!!