I spend a lot of time praying, you think I would become good at it. I guess I am still learning. Sometimes you have no idea of what to do next or which direction to go in. This can be quite unsettling. It can also bring a good dose of fear. Yes, life might be somewhat easier if we didn’t have to go through these difficulties, but would we learn if we were always given the answer right away. It’s usually in the struggle that produces the greatest growth. Finally you get to a point where you know that you don’t have the answer and nobody else does either except for Heavenly Father. Along with that everything that you have tried is not working. Then you get really serious and start asking questions wanting to know what His will is. You might even get desperate enough to claim that you will do his will, because you just want to know. Then the answer comes and initially you say ok, I will do that. Then you are hit with everything under the sun, and to you it doesn’t look right or it looks impossible and crazy and totally insane. You ask yourself why am I doing this? Why am I going through this? You question every little last detail, you go over and over and over the same territory fifty thousand times and the answer is still the same. Essentially you run around in circles exhausting yourself because you want to know exactly how this will all work out, when it appears that what you should be praying for is the ability or strength to get through it all. This little show all goes back to a lack of trust and belief. You don’t want to believe what you know to be true because everything has to change in order for that to happen and you don’t like change. Change is hard, however, we are never alone. He has promised that he will not leave us comfortless. So praying for that doesn’t hurt either. One day it might all make sense, but for today it won’t. Relish the opportunity to know that Heavenly Father is always there and you will be guided. Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thy own understanding. Proverbs 3:5