I know if I didn’t do this I would not be able to make it through my day. I tell him all my frustrations, all my confusion, all my anxiety. There was a time when I thought that I could hide even in prayer. I have found that he knows all, he sees all and that any hiding that I was doing was very ineffective. Heavenly Father knows me, he knows my hurts and my pain. He knows when I am trying and tries to help me. Problem with that is that I don’t always accept his help. Although I know that his help is far better than anything that is out there, I still struggle with it. I believe that I have a little too much pride in my own abilities. I also think that the adversary also knows that he can come in and confuse me to the point that I can’t even see my way clearly. The adversary also will make things appear to be one way when they are in fact another way entirely. This right here makes me want to just lay down and cease to exist at times. It’s so difficult to know what to do sometimes. I think I am making the right choices I really do. So here I am saying my prayers to Heavenly Father and really wanting to know what to do but I am the one who has to act with faith. It’s a never ending loop at times. Sometimes you just have to step into the darkness and hope that you have found the right way, because sometimes there are circumstances that it is not abundantly clear. Heavenly Father will never tell us exactly what we are to do in any given circumstance because he gave us our agency. He will guide us through other people who are not having the same problems but because they are not us they can see things more clearly for us. I thank Heavenly Father every day for those who are there to help me with my problems. Heavenly Father is our one true friend who will never abandon or forget us. Who knows us better than we know ourselves. He also knows how to comfort us when there is no comfort to be found. One day this will all make sense but for now it doesn’t and that is how it has to be.