Story of my life!! As I have struggled along trying to do the best I can I have thought that I had an idea of perfect, however, it didn’t seem to work out quite perfectly as I thought it would. I have done what I felt led to do, with much prayer. Well what do you do when things don’t quite work out? Well you pick up and try to change what you can change and keep going. This takes humility and trust, two things which are not the easiest for me. Life can be a real struggle and a battle if you let it be. Yes, I may have wanted my business to work out and at least be able to pay the bills that I have accrued. Obviously, that has not happened yet. One might wonder why I am not angry about it. I am not angry because that takes too much of my energy when I can refocus and refuel elsewhere. In this whole process I discovered that I like to teach people and maybe that is what is important. I decided to give substitute teaching a try as a way to make money to pay my expenses. I thought fifth grade would work since I use big words and the younger kids might not understand them. I walk in on my first day of subbing ever and haven’t been in a classroom to teach in my life and managed it. I felt like I belonged there. In fact the ESE teacher and Assistant teacher thought I had done it before. I took the job because it would help with my debt, little did I expect that I would love it. Funny thing is that I had tried signing up for this before and never completed the process. Sometimes we have to have big challenges that can force us to do things we never thought we could. This is all so that we can become the people we need to become. So yea God has a perfect plan and he will get us into our perfect plan whether we want to be in it or not. In time we will see that our idea of perfect was far less than his.