I have been struggling a lot lately, just trying to work things out. Reconciling my will to Heavenly Fathers will and not really sure what his will is sometimes. Life can be quite difficult. When dealing with this sort of thing I do tend to walk it all by myself. So if you wonder where I have been it is because I am working on some deeply personal things and sequestering myself. The majority of the problem stems from past experiences that didn’t work out the way I wanted them and trying to maintain my positivity when faced with similar issues. This time I decided that I would let Heavenly Father be in charge and not try to get emotionally tied to the outcome. If you know me, that borders on almost impossible. I also decided that I would look for the small blessings that could be overlooked. It was amazing to me. I had a situation that was not the best happen on Friday, but I didn’t find out about it until Sunday because I was notified in an email and didn’t look. Blessing number 1 was the fact that I don’t check my emails every minute and was in the right frame of mind when I did read it. Blessing number 2 was by time I checked that email I really had expected it, there was no surprise. Blessing number 3 was a reminder that Heavenly Father always gives me advance warning on these sort of things. Yes, I knew, but I didn’t know I knew. Then when taking care of other business that I had procrastinated I got some unexpected good news that made up for the bad news I received on Sunday night. Not that it was completely equal but it made up some of the difference. Actually I got that type of news twice on Monday. Not completely equal but good enough to give me the courage to continue when feeling like nothing works out for me ever. As for a few other things in my life, I do receive inspiration frequently that give me comfort and assurance that not only things will work out but that they will work out better than I can imagine them to be. Heavenly Father knows our potential better than we do. In the bad times we have to look for the blessings that are subtle and not readily noticeable.