Some days are just more difficult than others. I have looked back on my big challenges that I have had and I managed to survive them. Sometimes that is just it though, I survived. The question should be did I thrive from it. I have seen many who much like me have merely gotten through it. It is a hard thing to look at yourself when being challenged and to consciously choose a different path. Different from the immature, reactionary one I always gave!! This is where you really pay attention and find so many many choices. Some of those choices are minor some of them are major. I have rearranged some furniture in my head in the last year it has not been easy, in fact it has been the biggest challenge of all time. I have had to look at myself and say ok, this doesn’t serve me anymore. Essentially, a process of growth. Because of earlier difficulties I committed myself to my Heavenly Father’s will for me. I never knew the pride I carried with me!! It was eyeopening in so many ways. It was also extremely painful. Many times I cried because I wanted things my way…I still do!! Heavenly Father has been so patient with me and has loved me through it all. He has encouraged me when I didn’t want to go on. He has been my closest friend!! No matter what happens in my life that will always be my biggest blessing that Heavenly Father was there for me. This is where I learned to trust him!! This has been a very lengthy process and I had to learn patience and humility over and over again, those still aren’t my favorites, however, I do try. Knowing full well that each day I have practiced those things is all for a greater purpose, greater than the one I can imagine! In the end one of my greatest blessings in life will come because of the work that I put in with Heavenly Fathers help!! That is what I look forward to on rainy days such as this when I struggle!!!