I got up this morning with sciatic pain and I did all the things that I know to do to make it go away. I took ibuprofen which usually works like a charm and well, it’s not working at all. I’m trying to trust that this is happening for a reason unknown to me and that there is a purpose for my pain, since it doesn’t want to go away. Really I am just gritting my teeth, trying not to complain about the pain I feel. Just knowing that eventually the pain will pass is what I am thinking about. If I am walking around I feel ok, just sitting isn’t helping at times. I did ask for a blessing and got one. In the blessing it said that Heavenly Father loves me, a fact that is reiterated in every blessing I get. I’m thinking about His love and how do I really know that He loves me or how do I really feel it when I am in pain or confused or lonely. I started to think about how I love my grand daughter and how I love to just scoop her up and kiss her. I thought of other times when my kids were her age and how I would feel the same way. Without any real need on their part, just that it was inside of me, always there. Then I thought about how at times I felt like nobody loved me or cared about me. Then back to scooping up my granddaughter and kissing on her. I think that we need to remember that for every time we have ever given love to anybody else that Heavenly Father is giving us back the same love and greater, no matter what. When we want to wrap our arms around someone and comfort them, that is what he is doing to us when we need it. Just like I cannot deny that my grand daughter is a part of me, he cannot deny you. Think back to those times when you have felt love for another person and how you felt, that is how He feels about you and then some and His “love is simply always there.” it never goes away.