Following the spirit

What a weekend it has been. I was at a work party finally eating my food after waiting for over an hour and I get a phone call from my older son. He tells me that my 7 year old had been bitten by the dog on the face. I hurried and finished eating my food then went home to look at my little girl. During the longest ride home ever I prayed and prayed for guidance let me know what to do. I don’t know where to take her. Please help me. Help me find competent care. I got home and she had a 2cm gash on her right lower cheek, with a tooth mark puncture further in. It was not bleeding because they had cleaned it out with hydrogen peroxide. It was really clean, with just a little blood and I saw that tooth mark. Captain Jack the dog had a long day and was taken to the dog park and walked all over and I am quite sure was wore out, because it was very hot. Rebekah went to pet him and he went after her. Nobody was with her when it happened. Poor little girl by herself with a dog taking off her face. I can not imagine the shock that created for her. I thought well at this point she is not dying so lets go to the urgent care place we always go to. They were going to take her but there was an $8.00 bill that by law should not have been an issue it was a contractual dispute. Regardless I had my card out ready to pay and the lady said we billed you multiple times, to which I responded I received one bill only. I explained maybe you billed the insurance company multiple times but I only received one bill. She said to take my attitude elsewhere. Alrighty then, so we went somewhere else they were closed, then another that was also closed then another that was also closed. We went home to go look up some more places to take her, it’s a holiday weekend its after 6pm and I can’t believe there is nowhere we can go. I’m thinking emergency room, but something doesn’t feel right. Now this is really difficult because I am trying but something just was not right. We tried another place and they were closing soon and had a full lobby and refused to see her. Still not feeling a sense of urgency and I am praying in my heart continuously. Somewhere in all that I did stop at the local hospital emergency room and looked around and felt like I didn’t belong there. This one lady told me about the fastest place in town, but the nurse that was standing there had some derogatory things to say about it, so I’m a little confused. Now lets just say I’m really questioning what the heck is going on? I keep getting reassured that I needed to wait. I called an old friend with medical training, he said she needed competent care and to take her to the ER. Which ER? I just could not go, I was physically restrained. I’m starting to think that I am crazy. Again the spirit persisted with the right people need to be there. Well those right people need to be there now, this is crossing every single logical thought I could possibly have. I thought maybe she doesn’t need to go maybe we can handle this and everything would be good and I did treat it as best I could. Now we went to bed but the next day I should be on this. However, with only one vehicle to use I needed to make sure it was there and the husband had a big ride in Orlando, and I thought well I will go to the temple and take it up with the highest authority and at this point I am going so that he gets home sooner so that we can take care of all this. It is literally the only thing I can do!!! Sean was gone for longer than we were, so using his vehicle was not even an option. My oldest daughter was watching Rebekah and she was doing good, she had a band aid covering it, however it needs to be aired out some so I told her to take it off, which she did. Then she calls me pushing every single doubt and fear that I could ever have in this world and puts me into a complete state of panic. This took me 10 minutes to shake, I’m following the spirit here and nobody seems to get that. So I look for another place to take her. Bingo, 5 minutes away. We get Rebekah and go there. It’s CLOSED!!! Now I am fit to be tied so I try one more across town. I said if this doesn’t work we will go to the hospital closest to where we were at and get this done, because I am exhausted. I walk in to this very last place and ask about getting care. The Medical Assistant and the Doctor looked at her with no charge and told us that we needed competent medical care and to go to the teaching hospital 35 miles away. Why didn’t I think of that sooner???? Like duh…it’s been almost 24 hours and this thought of driving up there had never even entered my mind! As we are driving a few thoughts came to my mind, the team that will do this will now see her because they are all there and that Heavenly Father answered my prayer by letting me struggle with it. Heavenly Father knows what we need and WHEN we need it. This process took time. From a logical standpoint I was not doing things the right way, but from a spiritual standpoint I was!! What matters more? God’s opinion of me or man’s? During the procedure I realized how fear is part of my life and something I need to constantly keep in check. That I can let everything overwhelm me or I can face things the best I can and let Heavenly Father handle the things that I can’t. I found out today that the doctor who did the procedure is a board certified plastic surgeon, and for that bit of news I am forever grateful to my Heavenly Father for allowing me to struggle with all of this!! Sometimes when we are following the spirit it is not going to be logical and will appear to be the absolute opposite of what we really should be doing, by man’s standards. People will come and plant those doubts but we have to hold fast to what we do know no matter what. Walking as if the Savior stood beside us and keeping the faith. Learning to walk by faith with the spirit is not easy but it is not impossible.