To be fully awake and alive means that life is going to hurt, that is what it was designed to do. With pain comes growth every single time. Most of us including me would much rather be on life support than actually want to fully take part in life. Yes, I was finally woken up although it felt a lot like the titanic movie as the girl is telling the boy to wake up, in the frigid waters of the Atlantic. I didn’t want to I preferred the safety of my little cocoon I had built. It was comfy and cozy and I really liked it!! But I was awake and I realized a few things, you cannot hide yourself away because of the things that have happened to you. You have to keep going. I chose this path before I came to this world and I needed to be awake for it. I have worked hard at looking at my blessings rather than looking at my problems and letting them consume me. Some days it is easier said than done. With my health condition I can easily succumb to depression and woe is me attitude. Those times are when I throw myself into serving others, so I can forget myself. If I want to be more anti social about it I can simply read my scriptures or listen to good music until those dark feelings pass. Heavenly Father does not give us negatives only positives, so consider the source!!